What the Scallop!
This problem comes by over and over again. Firstly there's School.
I've always asked this question. What am i doing in school.
Really Simple, i'm there to study? And to reach out to my campus.
But school is ever so hectic. Everyday i've been doing routines
and its not what i'm supposed to be doing. Its like, i wake up in the morning,
get ready, leave for school. I get back from school which is probably kinda late
and i have a load of work to do. I find it hard to squeeze time in for God and the honest truth is that i really want to but i don't or at least not often.
I'm tired of going on a roller coaster with my spiritual walk.
I've lost my passion time and again. Its always been there During the weekends.
But when i return to school its all nowhere to be found. I don't want to get distracted. I've always hated this school.
I always thought that i would get into the Sports School. Prestegious and it was what i really wanted. Well, maybe god just doesn't have a plan for me in SSS. Then again, I ended up in Pasir Ris Crest -.-'' I've always looked at this school as if I didn't belong here. As if i was too good for it.
Never wanted to be in this school, I used to pity myself and all that blah.
But i know God has a plan and purpose for me. God i pray thay you'll reveal it to me. I've just been in school doing nothing. Senseless nothingness.
Guys in my school are pretty depressing to look at. They're just so lost. Lost in their little excapades. Smoking and fighting is basicly all they do. Everyday thinking of who their going to pick a fight with next. They go around 'settling' stuff, thinking that the answer to everything lies in their fists. I'm Tired of all this childish crap. Ego's are always clashing. Guys, GROW UP and get a life.
Girls are even worst? Well as a guy I know we'll never understand them.
Hmmms. The girls are basicly all depressed? ya. over guys. over life and how screwed up it is. I think girls nowadays, or maybe just at this age think too deep into things. Often they cut themselves. stuff like that. They always have things to say about their life. How everyone hates them and stuff. How that guy and the other guy broke their hearts. Hello? i shall not mention anymore.
Girls, Jesus Loves you and he'll never break your heart.
But here I am, Evaluating my friends. And am not doing anything about it.
Antz, i read your post. and i totally agree with it.
Oh yah!, Guys Jesus loves you too! you're not left out!
I really want to reach out to this school. My friends.
But there's always an excuse for me.
I don't want go on like this.
God open my eyes.
Give me the strenght.
Give me opportunity.
I pray that you'd use me to save them.
I pray that I'll not be too busy for you.
Jesus you died on the cross. You saved us all. Payed the price.
You deserve way better than what i'm giving you.
God make me 100% 24-7 living for you.
Let me shine for you in my campus.
I just can't stress how much i've been struggling.
It's like, school's school's. God's God.
I just forget about God when i'm in school. When i'm with my friends.
I seriously need discipline.
When was the last time i took up my bible? Spent time talking to God?
You know what? i'm gna do that right now =) for a start
Anyways. If you read this say a prayer for our schools'.
For our Friends. For our Family. For yourself.
Goodnight peeps.
Goodnight God. I LOVE YOU!
off to get my sword~
`All I need Is you Jesus
10:34 PM.
What the Scallop!
This problem comes by over and over again. Firstly there's School.
I've always asked this question. What am i doing in school.
Really Simple, i'm there to study? And to reach out to my campus.
But school is ever so hectic. Everyday i've been doing routines
and its not what i'm supposed to be doing. Its like, i wake up in the morning,
get ready, leave for school. I get back from school which is probably kinda late
and i have a load of work to do. I find it hard to squeeze time in for God and the honest truth is that i really want to but i don't or at least not often.
I'm tired of going on a roller coaster with my spiritual walk.
I've lost my passion time and again. Its always been there During the weekends.
But when i return to school its all nowhere to be found. I don't want to get distracted. I've always hated this school.
I always thought that i would get into the Sports School. Prestegious and it was what i really wanted. Well, maybe god just doesn't have a plan for me in SSS. Then again, I ended up in Pasir Ris Crest -.-'' I've always looked at this school as if I didn't belong here. As if i was too good for it.
Never wanted to be in this school, I used to pity myself and all that blah.
But i know God has a plan and purpose for me. God i pray thay you'll reveal it to me. I've just been in school doing nothing. Senseless nothingness.
Guys in my school are pretty depressing to look at. They're just so lost. Lost in their little excapades. Smoking and fighting is basicly all they do. Everyday thinking of who their going to pick a fight with next. They go around 'settling' stuff, thinking that the answer to everything lies in their fists. I'm Tired of all this childish crap. Ego's are always clashing. Guys, GROW UP and get a life.
Girls are even worst? Well as a guy I know we'll never understand them.
Hmmms. The girls are basicly all depressed? ya. over guys. over life and how screwed up it is. I think girls nowadays, or maybe just at this age think too deep into things. Often they cut themselves. stuff like that. They always have things to say about their life. How everyone hates them and stuff. How that guy and the other guy broke their hearts. Hello? i shall not mention anymore.
Girls, Jesus Loves you and he'll never break your heart.
But here I am, Evaluating my friends. And am not doing anything about it.
Antz, i read your post. and i totally agree with it.
Oh yah!, Guys Jesus loves you too! you're not left out!
I really want to reach out to this school. My friends.
But there's always an excuse for me.
I don't want go on like this.
God open my eyes.
Give me the strenght.
Give me opportunity.
I pray that you'd use me to save them.
I pray that I'll not be too busy for you.
Jesus you died on the cross. You saved us all. Payed the price.
You deserve way better than what i'm giving you.
God make me 100% 24-7 living for you.
Let me shine for you in my campus.
I just can't stress how much i've been struggling.
It's like, school's school's. God's God.
I just forget about God when i'm in school. When i'm with my friends.
I seriously need discipline.
When was the last time i took up my bible? Spent time talking to God?
You know what? i'm gna do that right now =) for a start
Anyways. If you read this say a prayer for our schools'.
For our Friends. For our Family. For yourself.
Goodnight peeps.
Goodnight God. I LOVE YOU!
off to get my sword~
`All I need is you JESUS
10:34 PM.